Reflections in Chaotic Times

I haven’t felt up to writing lately, there is a constant busyness that seems to follow me each day and the next thing I know, it’s a new day.  However, lately, due to the CV-19 Pandemic, my thoughts are of my two adult children whom I have not seen for a long time, and my grandchildren, growing into young teenagers and adults as the years pass.

With the CV-19 affecting mostly the elderly, (and although I don’t consider myself old, at 69) the vulnerable, and those with compromised immune systems, I began to think, perhaps I might hear from my daughter and son. I miss them terribly and wonder how they are doing, if they are well if my grandchildren are well.  I wonder that if I was alone (as I had been on my own up to this past May 2019, when God brought my husband into my life), would I ever hear from them?  Do they ever think of me?

For those of you who have read my bio, you know that I am devout in my Catholic faith.  Nothing, absolutely nothing will deter that from my life.  For those of you who believe in God, and not Catholic, it makes no difference, we are all on the same page in believing in a God who created everything.  With that being said, I daily pray and have conversations with my God, accepting this absence, after so many, many attempts to reach out to both my son and my daughter without any response in return.  But I won’t ever give up either, because God never gave up on me and I know what HE sacrificed for me due to the immense love He has for mankind.

Some may say, “well if God loves mankind so much, why is this or that happening?  The one thing that God gave mankind is “Free Will”. He doesn’t force any of us to love Him or obey Him.  My children are adults now, and they have their own thoughts and reasons.  I know I was a good mom, as is evident with them being as successful as they are, not in jail, not on drugs, working, providing for a family,, and I know that I gave them their faith, which again, the “Free Will” comes into play.  They are successful because of the opportunities that I made sure they had.

This causes me to think beyond myself, of all mothers, grandmothers, fathers, who are left alone to deal with this kind of crisis alone.  I pray that there are few, but I know that is not so.  So if you are blessed to still the above in your life, in your family, be there for them. Love them, help them, and know that at some point, all of us reach an age where we need compassion and love.  If we are blessed to live a long life, I always pray that families will always support each other, and yes, I know there are circumstance’s that prevent families being together, but I ‘d like to think that the majority of the people in this world have the desire and opportunity to appreciate their loved ones.  Family to me is everything, even when they are dysfunctional. Take care of your parents, Honor your Father and Mother.