Why am I writing? Just because
It helps me most and is the gauze
Bandaids for my inner pain
Mental anguish in my brain
The world in crisis yes it’s true
But in my mind there is one too
I was fine, I was ok
Now I have to face this day
When once before I cherished this
Away from life I lived amiss
In depression, ptsd
Some of life was gone to me
Years of work and gentle healing
The ghosts of past, they were leaving
When in hope I did find rescue
To the world I would join you
And now I feel the fear again
Oh I quickly get my pen
Here I write every word
To you they might seem absurd
Grazing through the minutes now
Fighting thoughts that hurt somehow
The deadly walking looking for
My life that I fought so hard for
Not because I had wanted
It was something that just haunted
For some control I did not have
So please try now not to laugh
The anguish and the torment
Feet Laden in cement
It’s not easy to refuse
When the size just fits your shoes
It’s sensitive in nature
And not a pretty picture
The life and my story
Isn’t full of glory
Now another crisis is facing everyone
Can you just imagine, if you’re the only one
What many go alone through
The crisis triggers now to you
If I can lend a hand and help in any way
The only gift I have, are the words and what they say
The deck of cards in life, the probability
It really is amazing, when you forgive and let it be
The barbaric acts of others are heinous and wrong
Shame inside becomes, something very strong
The biggest lesson learned, the hardest just to do
Was entering my heart and loving myself too
The greatest of all powers and most important too
Is letting that there love, believe in your value
The armour that you wear defends all of your wealth
Heart’s only ammunition is protecting mental health
#PaulaG
Great story Paula. Your words take life for those that hear.
Thank you Larry. Your friendship means a lot to me. 🙏🙏🙏❤️