This is quite a deep vlog on parenting, self-esteem and fear.
I don’t know about others, but I’m actually really scared a lot of the time, about being a parent, about getting it wrong and the consequences of that. I’m scared because getting it wrong really matters.
It matters because I want my children to feel loved by their family and to love themselves, but most of all, I don’t want them to end up like me. And that’s a hell of a thing to admit.
Fear dis-connects us from ourselves and our instincts.
Maybe we all know how to parent our own children, it’s our own lack of self esteem, acceptance and shame that gets in the way. Or maybe I’m just too scared to go on parenting courses or read the books because they may hold up a mirror to my mistakes and I’m just not yet ready to deal with them yet.
I’m not sure. It’s all a journey and I’m learning everyday.
Hoping this helps someone else too xx