“cherish these moments, tomorrow they will be memories”
One of my first thoughts every morning is how to be a better mom to my children. What do I want them to remember about our day as I kiss them before bed each night? Which memories will linger as they shut their eyes and get swept away by their dreams? How do I want them to see me when I’m at my finest but also when I’m at my lowest?
It’s not all chocolate kisses, rainbows, and silly games. Parenting is tough and something I struggle with on a daily basis. Did I say “I love you” enough that day? I know I say it often to them, but did I SHOW them that I love them too? Do they know I still love them and that I’m their biggest fan, even though sometimes I have to discipline and be “not-fun” mommy?
It can be easier if I take the pressure off of me, but it’s just so much pressure raising three little adults. I want to focus on making the most out of our moments together, but sometimes I do still have to parent. I have to teach, to be patient, to explain, to lead, to repeat myself over and over. Getting caught up in the teaching side of parenting makes me feel like I’m losing at the living side of parenting.
Taking a step back helps me realize that this all goes by so quickly. Too quickly. I can’t live my life in rewind but keep moving forward with the current. Our never ceasing current of making the most of our moments, all of them. The good and the not so good moments that will define our lives and the memories we leave behind.