Lately, between a caterpillar and a butterfly, I’m pretty sure I’ve been a caterpillar. I’ve gathered and consumed and taken my time to relish every moment. I also retreated and found my center and I am on the branch waiting for my wings to dry.
Which are you? Were you barely moving or were you flying when COVID hit? I know there were many people hurt by this lockdown.
Here’s my question: when you look back on the COVID period, in a few months or years, will you be able to say you did it right? What I mean by that was, did you use the time wisely?
It was a time to take in everything going on in the media, but it was also a time to stop, retreat, and reset. I feel most of us spent the first half of the lockdown in a query mode: Was this really happening? A worldwide lockdown? Was this a test, a hoax? Was the COVID virus a real threat? Was it manmade? A bioweapon? A precursor to a war…? Now we are asking when will it be over? We are being warned daily that it is going to come back. Oh, joy and rapture!
This COVID period really tested us. When we were told our health was in danger, wham! We knew the virus was a serious threat and it was pandemic. Then, came the lockdown. Bam! At this point, we were all feeling on the verge of panic. We could get this horrible virus… We could be isolated from all our loved ones in a cold dank hospital…We could become jobless, lose our business, become homeless… our minds were reeling.
We had every right to be in a state of shock and fear. However, the lockdown was the perfect time to shut down and go inward; become a caterpillar and spin a cocoon. It was time to rest. I asked myself: What are you going to do? What do you REALLY want to do? What is the most important thing? What is good for the family?
I thought about my adult children and my grandchildren. I cried. I thought about not being here for them. I thought of the heartless highly competitive world they have waiting for them… I cried more.
To make the best of this life both spiritually and materialistically, in order to fly, and reach great heights, we need to know: change and growth do not happen overnight. Change happens when we decide to follow through with discipline– which is nothing more than careful use of time. Successful people are those who don’t give up. They don’t waste time. The concert pianist, the front-line ballerina, the great artist, did not say “I want this” and it magically happened. They spent every day and hours of time working toward their goal. They sacrificed relationships, nicer clothing, perhaps even lived in a shabby accommodation.
So, I’ve started a project. I’ve begun a self-study of the Arabic language. I’m sure this will improve my vocabulary and pronunciation. I’m writing several verses of Quran every day. I want to finish all 114 Chapters. I am on the longest chapter which has two hundred eighty-six verses. I love seeing my notebook fill up! This will make my life much more secure. I will be able to write simple texts when I need to rather than writing in English. I’m using an online Quran site where I can see and hear the text clearly for correct pronunciation. I speak Arabic but not fluently and it is something I want to perfect.
Do not let COVID kill your dream (s). Do not let it clip your right to fly. Become a caterpillar, go inward, and you will find your focus. You will fly again, or maybe you will fly for the first time…
From My Heart to Yours,
Make every moment count.