There is an interesting correlation between life and existing. To live is to experience joy, happiness, and love. To be alive is a celebration. Unfortunately, many individuals are merely existing once they reach a certain point in their lifetime. Existing is waiting to die.
You must recognize this condition if you are to resume living. It is a type of self-inflicted punishment. It is, however, under your control. You may control your sickness. You may lift the sentence of punishment once you recognize it. The answer to the cessation of this self-abuse is self-love. You must learn to love yourself. You are worth it. You are worthy of the highest love, of joy, of happiness, and of a complete and fufilling life. Above all others, it is the self, your self, you must love the most.