I Am

I am Edgar Allen Poe, Jackson Pollack, and Jack Kerouac rolled into one tightly wrapped Cuban cigar.

 A bit short of a disaster and on the precipice of destruction,

I feel Gods presence in all that I do and seek to unearth salvation reaching into the emptiness of this space.

I’ve traveled, suffered, anguished in loneliness and screamed in silence as my heart was crushed in the depths of my soul.

I have longed for love, spent years acting as though sexual prowess was the solution

And discovering that what life gives, it also takes in blood.

I’m clueless at times, insightful, talented, brilliant and ignorant,

Yet I’ve never completely resolved myself to understand true peace.

I’ve seen and held death,

Whispered passionate words to one loved,

Wished I was somewhere else and closed my eyes to another’s suffering.

I am a man,

A father,

Brother, son, writer, and artist,

Cold in times of need,

And giving when salvation asks that I journey an extra mile for Him.

I’ve been sad and patient,

Caring and frightened,

Blind when I should have seen

Ever seeking forgiveness.

I’m a creature of my Savior,

And never good enough.

I’m always searching for salvation and understanding,

Ever buried,

Beneath my sins in shame.

 I am ……..

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An artist/writer as well as graduate of the University of South Carolina with degrees in journalism/20th Century American Literature, and retired senior executive of several international hotel/resort corporations, Johnny is the product of the south having been raised in the ever-changing transient lifestyle of a Carolina coastal resort. A point where he discovered, within his 300-year-old heritage and the world's dramatic social/cultural shifts during the late '60s to early 80’s an ambitious hunger and overwhelming curiosity to touch, see and become a participant in the virtually unlimited possibilities offered to those who wish for and seek life experiences. A journey which when hearing its details initially makes one a bit skeptical, questioning its validity as it is hard to imagine that incidents such as these may have crossed one man’s lifetime. This is the fodder required to step into zones exposing one's personal inner self, which many of his paintings and the words he writes do, openly. An ability to see and hear the tragic, beautiful, accomplished, exciting journey in a life free of inhibitions allowing others the opportunity to live vicariously and become, through his works, a part of its future. His larger works which have been featured in several Colorado and Fredericksburg Texas galleries and resorts have produced a number of collectors and fans. However, over the years, his paintings are mostly viewed by friends, enthusiastic new artist encountered on the streets or a small number of acquaintances he meets when dining in local cafés with his wife.