Such important work for a human being—
To feel regret,
Remorse,
To experience deeply, broadly the
Impact
Words, deeds have on other people.
Staring in the mirror right at a shamefear face
No longer stuffing these feelings
In a dusty box on top of a shelf
In the corner of an attic,
A moldy crate in a
Damp creepy basement, or
Inside the lining of arteries,
Running away from the most
Important muscle.
Forgiving self can be
Immeasurably more difficult
Than forgiving cruel words, deeds of others,
The silent complicity of indifferent ones.
Attached to
Nice Girl
Kind Girl
Sweet Girl
Quiet Girl
Silent Girl
Invisible Girl
Oh to Look at *Ugh*
Mean Girl
Jealous Girl
Resentful Girl
Salty Sailor Mouth Girl
Cornered Animal Spitting Nails Fierce Girl
Judgmental Girl
*Ugh*
Inner Quiet One
Watches scenes
Of younger hurting
Warriors
Using eyes of
Understanding
Compassion.
That’s what
Unresolved trauma
Looks like.
Wounded ones
Become fiery fighters
Sometimes
Out of their minds
Hurting others and
Themselves
Until those paths
Become bankrupt.
Choose healthy ways
To purge the pain
Kick boxing
Martial Arts
NIA Dance
Yoga Flow
Running, swimming, dancing
Bawling, sobbing, crying
MOVE the BODY
Scream F*CK F*CK F*CK
To the breezes that
Carry the wild words
To rumbling, crackling
Thunderstorms.
Forgive self
As a practice as
Cleaning a house
Is a cycle, a rhythm.
Keep purging
All that Past
All of It.
Feeling Remorse
Is the Price of
Freedom in
Heart &
Being.
Laura, such inspiring words that will surely allow those affected by ups downs of life will be able to encompass; recognize themselves, past and present and indeed forgiveness will be a crucial element of emancipation.
Super article, Laura.
Thank you so much, Simon. Forgiveness for a long time seemed like this intellectual concept that I couldn’t quite get my mind or heart around until I began to take on self-forgiveness as a practice and pathway to freedom. Your reflections and insights add much to this conversation. I am grateful.
Laura,
I cannot put into words your poignant and exquisite creation. Your use of language taps into one’s core. Thank you for this!
With a smile,
Darlene
Thank you so much for your kind reflections, Darlene! From my grateful heart to your beautiful heart, mind and being. 🙂
Forgiveness of self and of others enables courage, strength and peace.
Thanks for your reflection Laura.
blessings,
Cynthia
Laura,
This is just heart wrenching… heart opening…perfectly imperfect.. to be human enough to forgive. #forgivenesswins
Thank you so much for your kind words-how important to forgive ourselves-to embrace that we are perfectly imperfect. And yes, #forgivenesswins Absolutely a door way to a much fuller and freer life. I wish you a beautiful weekend, Carolyn. Thank you for all your support for my writing. it means a great deal to me. I am very grateful.
Laura, This is so beautiful. It reaches deep within my heart. I know my life is good yet on those dark gloomy days the wind wispers in my ear that within life sadness also lives. I head for the dirt road and leave the wind behind me.
Oh, so important to head to that dirt road to leave the wind behind you. We have so much to be grateful for, my friend and the experience of being alive can be filled with a rich cornucopia of feelings, thoughts, responses, reactions, awakenings, and realizations. I appreciate your kind words and reflections so very much. I wish you a joyful weekend ahead-may the gloomy days be infrequent. May the love-filled ones be many.