Dear Angels, God, Santa Claus, and a Genie in the Bottle,
I know you all know I have a milestone birthday approaching. I realized what I would love is three things–First- to be with both my siblings at the same time-just the three of us-maybe hiking at a park.
Since this has not ever happened -at least not in any clear memories I have of long ago and far away-and not since both our parents died, I realize this is a big ask. Yet, deep inside my heart and soul, I would be very grateful and likely bawl my eyes out-well, in all honesty, I am crying right now- just thinking about it as this possibility. My heart and body seem to know how healing this would be for all parts and pieces of me, including my grown-up Self even as I ignore the voice in my mind that keeps saying “You don’t deserve That! You aren’t worthy of That Gift! Why are you even typing this Dumb Letter!??!”
My second request would be that I could be with both of my adult children this Christmas 2022. The three of us haven’t been together for Christmas in seven years and I think it might be time for a reunion Christmas. I love Christmastime, the Love in the Air and all around us, the music, the belief that loving one another is possible, that many humans have an immense capacity to Love. Again, my heart, soul, and being would be incredibly happy and oh, so grateful for this experience. As a momma, who loves and cherishes, completely accepts her two children, I would know there is a God if we could be together, again, at Christmas. Well, I know there is a God-even if this didn’t happen-so if it did, then I would know you, Santa Claus, existed as I’ve long suspected, and a power as big as Love does flow and allow miracles to happen. 🥰
My third is for my beloved ones, colleagues, dear friends, friends at the lake, new friends I am getting to know, and strangers I have not yet met, and all my former lovers, ex-husbands, former significant intimate partners to know they are loved, seen, heard, and deeply valued always. Let them know I keep learning about love and gently remind them I’m a lifelong learner. My wiser self keeps having kind conversations with my constantly humbled self.
I know these requests seem very insignificant compared to World Peace, all women having a right to bodily autonomy, racial justice, the dismantling of command/control, oppression, greed, materialism, and building a world based on trust and inspiration, the creation of environmental harmony, saving the Monarch butterflies, dung beetles, and polar bears, the restoring of mental, emotional, and physical health to all human souls, and allowing The Ohio State Buckeyes to go to the Rose Bowl, again, but I hope you will consider these heartfelt requests from this one being who truly believes Love Always Finds a Way to Love.
I hope all of you are having an amazing day and I wish you a beautiful spring or autumn and ethereal bliss.
With love from my heart to all of yours,
Laura
Ps. Could you also take a moment and restore my ability to send and receive emails at [email protected]?
Dear Laura my friend,
Every paragraph, every sentence, every word and ever letter share your life, wishes and prayers to God. On reading your awesome words I lifted and taken on a journey. A journey of hope, of peace and ultimately optimism.
You are a special friend, Laura.
Thank you
Dear Simon, my friend,
Thank you for engaging with this ride, this journey with me through the letter to God and company. I appreciate the ways you see, hear, and value my words-and the hope, peace, and optimism surrounding all of those words–and the love, too.
I appreciate you very much. Your kindness means the world.
You are a special friend to me, too.
With heartfelt gratitude,
Laura
Laura: Great hearing your thoughts today and always. As I mentioned my catholic childhood today I could see your head nodding in recognition. What a shame to think of the tremendous promise they missed, the astonishing power they could have engendered in us instead of the demeaning, negative message of brokenness and ‘sin’ we were immersed in. And at birth! But as I said, it is a choice to dwell on such things, and though it’s taken many years, with Mariah’s sweet presence and help I’ve embraced the whole, unbroken part of me. You were spot on; no loving father would damage his children that way. Thanks for sharing, and best to you (and Paul)
Oh, Byron, I hear you and see you. Yes. Truly difficult to imagine the people we could have been as little children, teenagers, young adults, etc. had both of us steeped in unconditional Love and deep acceptance for who we were–and to know we continue to ‘come through” and see ourselves through more loving eyes and the accepting eyes of one another. Shredding those beliefs-those traumas takes a great deal of courage and commitment, energy, and love-and well worth it to begin to really Know in our souls/bones/beings We are More than Enough, that we are Love and Loving, Worthy of love, worthy of acceptance, care and kindness.
Thank you so much for the many beautiful actions you and Mariah are taking to share your book and messages of affirmation with the world! You are a blessing and a treasure, my friend!
All the best to you and Mariah!
With heartfelt gratitude,
Laura