I am sad
My mental fabric is engulfed with an obscure cloud
A sense of numbness is acting on me in loud
Sadness alone hovering on me with sheer proud
I do not feel at all to survive
My emotions are killing me with an amazing hype!
I truly cannot envisage
Why I lost my desire to survive in what context with rage
How I have been marooned by sheer dissatisfaction
Why life appears as meaningless in what condition
Only I evidently know
Without heat, pressure, and temperature nothing can grow and glow
It is the human spectrum
Which receive reflections of nature and adapt at random!
But I truly cannot able to fathom
Why fear of dying engulfing me and forcing to accept the nature’s eternal norm
Despite I know death is inevitable and momentarily knocking
My fancy for my planet Earth where I emerge is only discerning
I crave and yearn to live more
Which is self-contradictory to my existence in nature’s floor
I am in utter dilemma
Hinging myself between life and death in an amazing panorama!
I wonder how can I get rid of such fear
Why I cannot conquer fear with my hereditary inherent vigor
I thrived and strive out of combating the available situation
Which alone nurture me to sustain with an eternal simulation
Fighting against nature and making it amenable is my inherent trait
My signatue I draw in nature’s floor in continuum to ensure I am a living being and I do fret
I also possess kindness which is a quality utterly rare out of all creatures
I solemnly bestow my heartiest gratitude to my host who ensures my exposition in rapture!
But to be very honest
I still bearing an unbearable pain
Why I cannot obtain any favorable gain
Why I am suffering with sheer disdain
I really do not feel any longer for living in my available domain
I only desperately longing for a soothing haven!
But I only aspire of my memoir
Where my past prevails on present to make a delectable repertoire
For my posterity I only yearn
They do ruminate, thrive and exist with élan!
Goodness me, Debasish, that is quite a journey.Unless I am mistaken, I think there were only two optimistic lines at the end if the poem.
You are obviously a poet with deep thoughts that spiral in your mind, ultimately manifesting themselves in the written word. Thank you, Debasish