A Life Turned Around

So many times, we hear about people who turn to alcohol and drugs to mask pain.  Sometimes even the person engulfed in the wanted or unwanted behavior doesn’t know what brought them to the dependency of the ever-so-powerful mind-altering crutches.  But one thing is for certain is that it sometimes takes a life-changing event to pull the mind together long enough to start to understand what has really been happening.

We have to understand addiction is hard to control.  It’s a disease that sometimes has ties to friends and families who are or at one time also had dependency problems.  What may seem like ‘fun’ with people becomes a black hole, which is hard to crawl out of alone and without help.

Below is a poem I received of someone who had hit rock bottom in their life and was able to turn things around for not only herself but for the life of her baby girl.  She allowed me to share a very surreal moment in her life that was the catalyst to change her life.  Her hope in sharing her thoughts, as she described, the hardest time in her life, would in some way help someone else who is in the deep throes of addiction to know there is a way to break free.

I thought I knew pain before

But that was just the beginning

I’ve finally found what I love more

And that’s a life that is worth living

I can’t be ashamed of my past mistakes

They’ve made me who I am today

It’s amazing waking up without the shakes

For so long for this, I’ve prayed

The journey I’m on isn’t over yet

I’ve got a long road to travel still

But, I’m gonna make it this time, I won’t forget

I know there’s a way, and I have the will

For all the wrongs I’ve done

This time I’ve learned the most

I’ve realized I’m not the only one

And I need to hold my family close

Addition can be so very cunning

I’ve lost most everything I loved

I thought I could get away by running

I really need help from the man above

All of the people I thought were friends to me

It turns out I was just there to be used

They were just as good to me as an enemy

I was the nice one, the only one they could abuse

Four long months later I’m clean and sober

It’s crazy what you learn in this small cell

I can say that old life is done and over

I am tired of the life that was a living hell

So, I’m starting fresh, just my daughter and me

No drug or drink will stop me now

Nothing means more than her and my sobriety

I’ll show everyone just how

If you don’t believe me, I’ll understand why

But just watch me and you will see

I understand I used to lie

But today that just isn’t me

The poem is very raw and tells a lot of the feeling of loneliness and realization of a life gone astray.  But I am very proud of how she was able to pull herself up and walk proud.  Challenges ahead?  I am sure the first battle is realizing the problem, but the struggle is typically a lifetime battle.

Remember, it’s easy to wake up and feel horrible and think you can control the urge.  You want to move forward that day and just stop.  But, when you feel you only have to ‘slow down,’ it will forever rule your body and your mind.  Please take the time to get help.  You are worth the life you deserve.

Please call the addiction National helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357)

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Robin Anderson
Robin Anderson
ROBIN Anderson earned her BBA and MBA from Averett University and graduated with a 3.88 GPA. She is also a member of the Pinnacle National Honor Society and a member of the Institute of Financial Operations as well as served on the Strategic Advisory Committee for several years and has been a speaker for 4 years at the National Convention. Robin also speaks for the IOFM, AP Now and Tomorrow and Averett University. Robin volunteers her time with organizations such as the American Cancer Society, the ALS Association, and speaking for Averett University.

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  1. Thank you for this meaningful article about addiction and for sharing that young woman’s poem, Robin. My own life was turned upside down by a member of my family who struggled with addiction-almost died twice. He’s flourishing now. One of his epiphanies was that he wasn’t a F-up but that he had done F-ed up behaviors. Indeed. His story of transformation inspires me deeply as he took on the challenge of the mental patterns that were behind his addiction. I believe many people are impacted by other people’s addictions and that with support lives can be saved. Each person must choose that path for him or herself, however, as a first step-choose their life. The deep internal work remains essential and profound. Breaking free of often ancestral patterns of mental, emotional illness, and addiction remains a huge challenge and opportunity for humanity.

    • Thank you Kimberly for reading the article. It was profound for me as well and I do hope this will help someone struggling. If the article can help save one, then it was well worth the effort.

    • Thank you Melissa for your work with children affected by addiction. You are so right how unforgiving this disease really is….my only hope this article will reach someone who needs help.

  2. By now everyone knows that addiction is a process through which, initially, a behavior is produced which can have the function of providing pleasure and alleviating an internal malaise. Subsequently, it is characterized by a constant failure of its control and its persistence, despite the negative consequences it produces.
    The person, by becoming addicted, loses control over his own life and, although he wishes to get out of it, the attempts he makes in this sense are mostly unsuccessful.
    And now even teenagers know this but the spread of this evil has no limits, involving more and more young people in age.
    I can therefore understand how much courage and determination a person who wants to get out of it must find.

    • I love redemption stories

      Won’t you help to sing
      These songs of freedom?
      ‘Cause all I ever had
      Redemption songs
      All I ever had
      Redemption songs
      These songs of freedom
      Songs of freedom

      Source: Musixmatch
      Songwriters: Bob Marley

    • Thank you so much for your insight. It’s such a horrible road for one to take. Getting out is almost impossible. I appreciate your comments. You are spot on!! Robin